“I started taking heroin to feel get myself together for work on a Monday morning after partying all weekend. I began to take ecstasy and cocaine, like everyone else; so that we could dance all night without getting tired. I could handle it at first; I would stay in bed all day on a Sunday and although I felt a bit groggy on a Monday morning I could hide it and push on through the day. After a couple of years I was taking more ecstasy tabs and snorting more coke to get high and I couldn’t get myself together for work. I got sacked eventually, lost my flat and had to sell my car. I moved back home but the partying continued until my Mum had had enough and told me if I didn’t straighten myself out and get a job I was out. This worked for a while, I stopped going out and managed to find a job which was not as good as the job I had previously but at least I was working.
“I had money again and started going out. One night I asked a friend how she managed to hold her job down after partying, she said that she just smoked a few lines of brown on a Monday morning and she was fine. She offered to get me some and I smoked it before work. It worked!! It was brilliant. I felt amazing and just used it on a Monday morning for a couple of months. Then I started craving it during the week. I rang her and asked if she could get me some more. She gave me the number of someone who would deliver some to my house for £20. They brought it and then rang me every day to see if I wanted more. It took me only a few weeks to get hooked…totally. I lost my second job, my Mum kicked me out, I ended up in a hostel and then doing things for money to buy drugs that I would not only never have imagined I would do, but had judged people for doing in the past.
“I got to the lowest I could go and rang my Mum. She gave me a number of a lady to ring and said, “Don’t bother ringing back if you don’t ring this number.” It was addiction solutions and the lady talked to me for ages. She told me it didn’t matter how far I had gone down, that with help I could overcome my addiction. That was nearly two years ago. I can’t thank them enough.
“I would have been dead, or in prison if I hadn’t got help. My life is amazing now, I’m getting married to a wonderful man next year and I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
“I can’t tell you about the amazing job I am doing now in case I identify myself. What I will say is thatI can’t say “thank you” enough.
- A gifted lady